It’s happening. I’m sitting at Gate 31, waiting for the plane to take me to Las Vegas. The second Diabetes UnConference is this weekend, with a packed schedule of fun leading up to it. I’m grateful for the alumni, the new attendees, the facilitators, the sponsors, and John and The Kid. If there was a color for grateful, I’m be a blazing light of it.
But while I’ve been wrapped up in all the goodness that comes with this, other amazing things are happening in the community.
It’s been quiet around here at the blog, but I’m not being quiet in other places. Lots going on and I’m happy with the way it’s all going… it’s just going at full speed most of the day (and night).
Zero complaints, because truth? I love my life right now. As I texted with Heather Gabel earlier today, the only way I can describe it is: “happily terrified.”
Here’s some things I’m involved with or care about… in no particular order.
The Diabetes UnConference Las Vegas 2016
Crunch time. Registration is still open, but we’ve got a only a few spots left for attendees. To think that in less than 30 days, I’ll be in Las Vegas with some of my most favorite people in the world – and that I’ll get to meet more new favorite people, well… swoon.
These people are my tribe. They believe in peer support and the power it wields. I expect laughter and tears and new inside jokes as well as some old ones (#vegasdust, #claptwice). There’s a lot to do between now and then.
The Diabetes Pre-UnConference Sessions
The Diabetes Collective (the non-profit I founded in 2014) is hosting the Friday, March 11, 2016 Pre-UnConference sessions, which will be free and open to the public. The focus is diabetes, but not necessarily psychosocial – we’ve got Moira McCarthy Stanford sharing her ideas on how to put the fun in fundraising for diabetes research and a session on how not to lose your mind with diabetes. There’s much more; take a look.
We held our first DPAC Insiders dialog this week and while I knew what we were planning to do in 2016 in terms of diabetes policy advocacy, talking about it makes me even more excited.
Bennet and I will be doing DPAC Diabetes Advocacy Boot Camps online and in person to assist passionate people in becoming effective advocates for diabetes policy. It’s certainly not the same as raising diabetes awareness or being an advocate for myself.
This is the HealtheVoices Conference‘s second year and I’m honored to have been chosen to be part of the advisory team this year. For those who are online advocates of ANY health condition, this is an amazing and empowering experience. I learned so much about other health communities and a little about how I view myself as an advocate.
If you are on social media (have a blog, Twitter following, Instagram groupies) talking about a health condition, I encourage you to apply. While I can’t publicly talk about them yet, the keynote speakers and the sessions are going to rock socks off.
This year, it’ll be in the Windy City (a.k.a. Chicago).
Please note: Janssen Global Services paid for my travel expenses for the conference in 2015. I am being compensated for my time and travel expenses in 2016. All thoughts and opinions expressed here are my own.
Still Pump Breaking
I’m tinkering. Experimenting. The lows are significantly better because I reduced the Tresiba dosage. I’m having issues with the nano pen needle length (insulin is leaking out, despite keeping the needle in long enough for it to do its thing) and I’ve got my pharmacy special ordering syringes with half-unit dosing. I appreciate the DOC for commenting and sharing their thoughts, tips, and suggestions so that I can have an alternative to insulin pumping. You all rock.
I’m about five days into my MDI adventure (Tresiba and Novolog flex pens) and well… from the title, you can guess how it’s going.
It’s a little bumpy.
It’s not Tresiba’s fault. Or Novolog’s fault. The flex pens are amazing (once I learned how to use them!) and throwing them into my purse along with the rest of my gear is simple.
It’s having to learn how to be a person with diabetes all over again in a more “traditional” sense. Not that I was sloppy, but I would casually bolus for meals and figure if I saw a rapid rise, I could dose a teensy bit to bring it back down within range. I would guess at carb counts, figuring I could always adjust later. Adding Invokana to the mix means that my carb ratios and correction ratios are also a little off kilter.
And the math. Oh, the math. I forgot about diabetes word problems:
If Christel’s fasting blood glucose level is 164 because she bottomed out last night and the cortisol is still hanging around in her system and she wants to drink a cup of coffee with half and half now and scarf down an English muffin (double fiber!) with peanut butter before she goes running at the gym an hour later, how much should she bolus?
(If you know the answer, please let me know, because I have yet to solve it correctly.)
I’m pulling packages out of the garbage to get the carb counts. I’m eyeballing fruit. I’m eating more protein because it’s less of a headache. And yet, my CGM graph still looks ugly.
Here’s the rub: One unit of insulin means a lot to my body. It loves it these days. So much so that if I inject one unit to correct a BG outside of my comfort zone, I can send myself into a severe hypo. Which I did this weekend. Flex pens are only for one unit dosing (or two unit dosing). Yes, you can purchase cartridges for a half-dosing device, which I may look into doing next month if this continues.
The second rub: From my years of pumping, I know that my afternoons are when I need less of a basal. Crash. I will be decreasing my basal Tresiba dosage to counteract the crashing. We’ll see.
Why am I doing this?
Normally, when it’s time to eat, I reach down while glancing between my CGM and my meal and bolus. These days, I head off with my phone (mySugr is awesome if you are doing a MDI regimen. Seriously. No better way to track injections and food and times and BGs!) to check my BG by fingerstick, think about what I’m going to be eating, calculating if I still have insulin on board and how many carbs I’ll be eating. Then twist that pen, inject, and dispose of the needle in a sharps container. It’s not 30 seconds…
John asked me why I was really taking a break when we were eating dinner last night.
I think I’m doing this for a few reasons: 1) I really need a break. 2) I need to know if something does go wrong with my pump that I can handle MDI and know what my dosages should be. 3) It’s teaching me to be mindful of what I am eating and doing. It’s teaching me what it means to have diabetes again.
I may explore the amazing Dr. Steve Edleman’s “untethered regimen,” which for me would mean I would continue to take Tresiba (which I do like very much, for when I do get it right…. my BG levels are beautifully stable) and then only put the pump on to bolus. (This would allow me to do those 0.4 correction boluses that I simply can’t do right now with the flex pen.)
I’m still riding the diabetes bike. Crashing is inevitable when you’re learning to ride again.
She wants you to only keep things that “spark joy” and to find a place for everything in your home. Obvious, she does not have diabetes, because she would know that it’s hard to get that spark of joy from a lancet. But.. I kind of get what she means. (I’ll explain later.)
I was curious (her “method” is hot on Facebook and Pinterest), so I took a gander at what her revolutionary concepts boiled down to – and if I could adapt them for life with diabetes.
KonMari: Diabetes Supplies
Here’s what her main concepts are – and my take on whether I can (or you can) KonMari my diabetes supplies. Some of what she espouses is a little touchy-feely, but if you can go with the flow or look past “thanking your items,” you might find Diabetes KonMari could work for you, too.
Tidy up all at once, not little by little. The idea that if you just try to organize a little bit every day, you’ll end up organizing just a little bit every day.
I feel like that’s all I do with a kid. Tidy up little by little – a Lego here, a stray sock there. You know the phrase: “Death by a thousand cuts?” That’s what tidying up little by little can feel like. Anything that I can do for my diabetes to “tidy up all at once in one fell swoop,” I’m willing to do. Also, need to check those expiration dates, right? So, let’s do this.
Sort by category, not by location. “The best sequence is this: clothes first, then books, papers, komono (miscellany), and lastly, mementos…Sticking to this sequence sharpens our intuitive sense of what items spark joy inside us.”
OK, it’s all komono with diabetes, right? Grab all your diabetes supplies and everything related to diabetes. Everything. Put them all together. Wait. Did you forget that box of lancets hiding in the other bathroom? That one, too. The meter in your purse? The extra meter in your suitcase? Glucose tabs. Juice boxes. Anything and everything to do with diabetes, down to the extra supplies in your emergency kit. Put it all there, sweetie. Everything.
Start by discarding, all at once, intensely and completely.“Do not even think of putting your things away until you have finished the process of discarding,” she exhalts.
I had diabetes detritus that I didn’t even know I still owned. Items that I’m sure I said once: “I might need that.” and threw it in a box. Lancets from 2004, still in the packaging. (Admit it… you probably do, too, if you’ve had diabetes that long.) I culled my diabetes supplies down from a mountain to a fairly robust mound, putting some items into piles for donation (if I could) and trash (if I couldn’t). Gotta say it was cathartic. And here’s why…
Keep only the things that “spark joy”. She wants us to pick up every item and ask, “Does this spark joy?” She tells us: “Keep only those things that speak to your heart. Then take the plunge and discard all the rest.” Let’s be real. We’re not going to hold every item. But…
“What the hell, Christel!?! (Yes, that rhymes.) How can diabetes supplies give me joy?” Yeah, yeah. I’m right there with you. Except that I have this one favorite lancing device that I use, so why do I have seven different other types of lancing devices that I will never use? Why do I keep infusion sets that I tried once and abhorred? Why do I have glucose tabs that make me gag in the bottom of a backpack? (I’d rather eat table sugar.)
The point of this is to figure out what you do like and keep those items and get rid of the rest. If you’re scared about losing your one lancing device you own, get another from your medical team or purchase one. (Or swap an unused one with someone you know.) Clear out the stuff you “might use someday if I use up everything else” and you’ll find you have the diabetes supplies that may not bring you unbounded joy, but don’t suck.
Once you’ve finished discarding things — (selling them, donating them, giving them away, or ::gasp:: throwing them away) — only then do you store them. KonMari tells you to think about why you have a particular item(s), and then think hard about the role it plays in your life. Ask when you got it. Why you got it. How about that spark? If you decide it’s not worth keeping, you can say, “Thank you for teaching me what doesn’t suit me,” and let it go.
Um… I don’t think you have to touch and thank each lancet separately. You’d be “thanking” for a long time. But think about what you don’t need.
But in donating these items, you’re helping someone else. Books on diabetes that you don’t need? Donate them to your local library or share them with your local diabetes group. Ask if anyone could you unused lancets, syringes, meters, etc. and gift them to someone who will be sparked by joy. And if you can’t find anyone, you can always donate to Insulin For Life – USA. (Link and info on what you can donate here.) But throw away any expired or used items. Those aren’t helping anyone – especially you.
If you use it, you need to put it away. Storage is key.“Clutter is caused by a failure to return things to where they belong. Therefore, storage should reduce the effort needed to put things away, not the effort to get them out.”
I bought clear plastic bins with locking lids and put my most used items (strips, pump supplies, and Dexcom sensors) on a shelf that I can easily access. Extras? Storage that is easily accessible but out of the way. What about glucagon? Glucose tabs? Those lannnnnccccetttts? Find a place for them to “belong” and keep them there until they are needed. Nothing is worse that trying to find a glucagon kit shoved in a drawer.
Eliminate visual clutter.“By eliminating excess visual information that doesn’t inspire joy, you can make your space much more peaceful and comfortable.”
My bedside drawer holds my meter, my glucose tabs/juicebox, etc. At night, I take them out and if they didn’t get used, they go back into the bedside drawer in the morning. It’s a hard habit, but I like being able to look over in the morning and see the absence of diabetes on the night table.
I’ve begun to find storage places and taking diabetes out of my line of sight, but I know where everything is stored now.
Would you be wiling to try and KonMari your diabetes? Do you think this method can’t be used for diabetes? Or do you have a better method to “spark joy?” I’m curious as to your thoughts, too!
Our ocean angrily spat out a tsunami of tragedy towards the shore this week.
Given enough time, I can usually prepare for these foamy waves. Bracing myself for the darkness and the salty taste and battening down the hatches, I raise the alarms through social sirens. My loved ones know that we are in for rough weather.
After the initial shock, the cold, unforgiving water recedes and leaves tiny, glistening bubbles of grief on the sand.
These fragile globes are what remains, holding memories and unrealized possibilities within.
They pop without warning. They leave us breathless.
My beach is filled with them.
To angrily stamp on them does nothing. More watery spheres form and burst.
So I let them be, sitting quietly, waiting for the calmer waves to wash over them.
The pull of the moon will sweep the grief back out to sea, etching lines into the undertow.