There are days when I feel I can take on the world and win.
This is not one of those days.
My blood sugars are fine today. A beautiful straight line on my Dexcom mocks me. “Hey, you’re stable, but you feel horrible. Ha ha!”
I had a minor low last night. My CGM perked up around 2am to alert me of a “70 and dropping” scenario, so I dragged myself out of a warm cocoon, navigating the living room minefield of Legos and things that make noise if you step on them to grab a juice box out of the fridge. A half-hour later, I’m trending up and went back down…to sleep.
I feel like I’ve never woken up, even though it’s mid-afternoon. I’ve got the “hit by a Mac Truck” post hypo blues and it’s really bothering me today. It’s not as if it was a severe low blood sugar. I caught it well before it got into the danger zone. I’m nauseous and tired and dizzy…but yet I know it’s not a “normal sick”, so I can rule that out. It makes me angry that even when I treat my hypoglycemic reactions responsibly (I didn’t “eat all the things!”…), I end up paying for it.
So instead of feeling like I can take on the world, I am focusing on taking on myself.
And I’m losing.
Do you ever feel like this?